2005-01-24 + 11:04 p.m.
heresy

does it mean any less
to sit and wonder just what
will come, turning the future
into reality
in the next minute and a half?

2:58:26 am (at least it was)

ninety-four seconds separate
this moment from a time that
means something
to both of us
_______________

there's this strange sort of bond
between you and i.
since this time last year, i've
not been able to talk to your spirit

I regret losing touch with your Father
not so much for myself,
but because of the connection
--possibility, more accurately--
that will not exist:
the kind of connection you share over
awkward dinners (dates?) that
get interrupted--thankfully--by friends

part of me is thankful for this
change. it's a relief to have
a truth of my own. my saddness
is a product of the tears you
shed for others out of happiness,
for discovering something i'm not
sure i can find again.

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past / future